I don’t know how to handle a complicated heart.
I don’t know what to do, or what to say.
I don’t know what we did, or what we said..
I dont know what you’re feeling, what you’re facing..
I don’t know where to go from here…
I just… don’t know…
How long more does this has to go on? How long more do I have to feel this way? These questions just kept bugging me through…
…and I soon began to realize, I’m slowly losing my path, losing my way, and I’ve never felt this lost. Never. I lose my words every single time I try to talk it over. I lose my guts to speak about it when I’m with you. I’m not as positive as I used to be..
…I’m slowly losing myself.
Is it that hard? Why?
What am I supposed to do.. or what is there that I can or should do. Is it my wrong for this had happened or is happening? Even if it is, I don’t think ’sorry’ would solve any issues now. I don’t want to let this take over me, but everytime I think about it, I’d just wished if only tears could spell the words that I’ve lost, or at least draw me a picture of my lost path.
Lost, is all that I am, and all that I’m feeling. It’s a fucking complicated heart.. with a fucking complicated scene.
Just for these few words here, most of them repetitive indeed, it took me 2 hours 40 minutes to put it all down here. That’s how lost and complicated I’m feeling.
